| Writer's Block: Blast to the past |
[07 Sep 2011|04:19pm] |
I would tell myself to keep myself away from women till I was at least 25... go to school, or go into the military just leave the women out of it right away!
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| Memories |
[23 Aug 2011|02:40pm] |
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Too many memories
of things lost and destroyed
Too many pasts
that leav me annoyed
I wonder where these things
have gotten me today
Cuz even to these ends
I still continue getting betrayed.
I miss so many things
in these typed fonted pages
But as I look around them,
I start to get retrapped into cages.
These memories are here to remind
sometimes to think
sometimes to rewind
Too many memories
Too many pasts.
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| These days |
[24 Sep 2009|10:07pm] |
These days are the days in which we live or die
These days are the days in which we smile or cry
These days are the days in which we drown or fly
These days are our choices
These days are our instincts
These days are our visions
These days
our only days
to see who and what we are
These days we make an impact
for the good or the bad
for the indifferent or the caring
for the heart or the soul
Give into these days
for it is our duty and our reason.
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| Lullaby |
[01 Dec 2008|12:59am] |
Ive broken through all your promises
And came to realize
Youve hurt me too much
youve dragged me to far
Ive fallen through the sky
Its time to move on to another lullaby
Destroyed by your heart
Broken by your dreams
Youve beat me too much
youve bruised me to hard
With the looks in your eye
Its time to move on to another lullaby
You gave me your promise
to never hurt me
you got lost in your own words
and forgot to decide
Its time to move on to another lullaby
Goodbye Lullaby
I thought you were the one
Goodbye Lullaby
Never thought you would be done
Goodbye Lullaby
I am still alive
So its time to move on
To another lullaby....
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| Your More important than the sun |
[05 Jul 2008|07:45pm] |
I would rather wake up to you,
Than see the sun rise in the morn,
I would rather hear your voice,
Than live my life all torn.
Your smile and laugh are toxic
Keeping me afloat like that of a boat,
That love still exists in this world,
Your words keep me alive with such hope.
I would rather wake up to your smile,
Than let another day pass,
I would rather wake to your eyes,
Than finish another task.
Your happiness and hope are worthwile,
Keeping me in the grasps of greatness,
That your closeness to me is growing,
Your soft tones so full of sweetness.
I would rather wake up to you,
Than see the sun rise in the morn,
I would rather hear your voice,
Than live my life all torn.
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| The New Deception |
[28 Dec 2007|09:58pm] |
Ive found my new deception
Its masked in my fate
Covered in reflection
In the mirror on my face
Crawling inside my mind
It devoures all traces
My eyes gone completely blind
Only the memories of my races
I believed it was nothing foul
Only to discover hate
Hiding in a seemless cowl
Ready to control my fate
Im tearing away this pain
This deception of my mind
A new path on a train
To a better hope left to find
Ive found my "old" deception
Its masked in my fate
Covered in reflection
In the mirror on my face
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| Broken Hinges |
[11 Sep 2007|09:49pm] |
These hinges have opened
And opened and opened some more
They have become weary and hard
seeing them held in place
with the rust of time and the movement of salt
These hinges of my heart
no longer want to open
They have become stuck
shut to the world
with its hate and its blindness
These hinges are sealed
with only a crowbars chance
of being opened
by the purest of emotion and love
These hinges are tired
of the same words
of the same stories
of the same illusions
These hinges are broken
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| You |
[30 May 2007|09:33pm] |
Why cant I have the one like you
you, the one who speaks there mind,
you, the one who wants to be a queen
you, the one that would treat me like a king
Why cant I have that one like you
Is it something I say, something I do
Why cant I have the one like you
such a pretty smile and a pretty face
a beautiful mind and wonderful taste
Why cant I have the one like you
who makes me smile as if on cue.
Why cant I have the one like you
Id treat you like the queen you are
Id treat you like youve never been
Id treat you like there would never be another
Why cant I have that one like you
Oh yeah... you live too far away...
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| ... |
[02 Apr 2007|11:54pm] |
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*shifty eyes*
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| Cold days of life |
[30 Jan 2007|05:26pm] |
On these cold days of life
all I see is failure
On these cold days of life
all I see is pain
On these cold days of life
all I see is indecision
On these cold days of life
all I see is rain
These are the tears in front of my eyes
These are the tears that grace my face
These are the drops of lies and disgust
These are the drops of my lonliness
On these cold days of life
all I know is hate
On these cold days of life
all I want is love
On these cold days of life
all I do is shudder
On these cold days of life
all I want is death
This is the death that covers my night
This is the death that haunts my days
This is the death that drowns my hopes
This is the death that I wish was sooner
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| Denied |
[16 Nov 2006|10:58am] |
I trotted along a tattered path
unknowing what lie ahead
I denied the stone
I denied the way
I denied the world
my unbridaled rage
Given the choices that must be made
not fathoming whats next
I denied the air
I denied the decision
I denied the world
my deadly precision
The trees told me to follow them
confused of there offering
I denied the branches
I denied the sway
I denied the world
in every way
I deny you
I deny me
I deny my existence
my denial is complete
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| Mistaken Silence |
[13 Nov 2006|09:40pm] |
I've seen it so many times
Your face so silent
the expression still
Your blank stares
befuddle me
confound in me
a worry unprecidented
I feel hopeless
and daunted
unsure of words
not yet articulated
My mind evaporating
from the unknown
you answer no questions
you utter no thoughts
Yet here I am
destroyed by insignificance
anguishing over ghosts
You are happy and content
Everything you need is in me
For you feel no thoughts are necessary
Everything is zen
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| I feel |
[26 Oct 2006|03:23pm] |
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I feel numb
completely undone
absolutely destructed
anhialated and obstructed
yet i feel numb
my heart feels empty
feels cold and shrivled
its hollow unrivaled
yet i feel numb
my brain cant take anymore
my soul cant take it either
drench the rag, swallow the ether
yet everything feels numb
the knife excruciating
with its cold and hot
inside my heart it will continually rot
Numb
no more
its all
numb
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| This ones for you, you know who you are:) |
[22 Oct 2006|03:36pm] |
As I sit in my chair
With a smile on my face
As our conversation takes off
We are in no race
Your words are the solution
to every puzzle and maze
They solve every doubt in my heart
You make me smile with every word
Today my life given a new happiness
Someone to cherish
Someone to behold
You are that someone
that someday I wish to hold
If I never met you it would break my heart
but I will also never be unhappy
with you in my life
no matter how far apart
Youve given me new hope
a new renewall to my existence
Just your words alone
give me all the assistance
Thank you for being you
Thank you for letting me be me
Your happy face and wonderous smile
let me be happy and free
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| The Chosen One |
[14 Oct 2006|11:51pm] |
Cry me to sleep with your broken promises
Cry me a river with your empty stares
Cry me into pieces with a weak embrace
I fought the waves to get to you
I fought them again to keep you
I fought them some more and got you
The love was there i swear
The love was pure so i felt
The love was the most perfect
Now I lay here confused
Now I lay here disillusioned
Now I wonder where I am
Your not the chosen one
Your not the perfection
Your not the right decision
But where do I go
But what do I do
But how do I see
Im so
So very
confused...
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| um ok |
[20 May 2006|08:36pm] |
Everytime I cry
I feel like I have died
Everytime I smile
Its because youve made it worth while
Ive torn your heart in two
cuz I didnt know what to do
And now Im running with some glue
cuz I know I wanna love you
Now its gaining back your trust
that i let go to rust
Thats got me trying hard
To winning back your heart
I hope you can forgive me now
for being a retarded delapitated cow
I hope you can forgive me
because with you here I am free
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| Beauty |
[03 May 2006|11:07pm] |
Beauty queen
of my every dream
Beauty smile
Beauty Kiss
If I had them
Im sure I would miss
... to be continued... got sidetracked... :(
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| Because of you |
[01 May 2006|07:08pm] |
Because of you I cant make her smile
Because of you Im not worth her while
Because of you, she loves no more
Because of you, shes shutting the door
Its not your right to hurt again
Youve hurt her before, now just let it mend
Its not your right to push in hateful
Leave her alone to her new table
Its all because of you
that she hasnt a clue
of what could be
if she was with me
she hates your ignorance and your deceit
she hates your contempt and your sour treat
let her have happiness and bliss in her life
let me shower her in love and make her my wife
you think im crazy and completely off
that she'll just leave me completely distraught
but ill tell you, your the one missing out
cuz for her Ill always be devout
Im not like him, or him, or him
i know youve heard that before
and i know it clouds your judgment
ive been there before
but ill show you something different...
I promise..
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| Faded |
[20 Apr 2006|05:58pm] |
Faded are the gleams in my eyes
Faded is the moon in the sky
Faded away my ambition and hope
Faded into the noose of a rope
I find myself each and every day
Confused as to what next to say
What I should do at that next turn
And where I should go, where it wont burn
Faded away are the stars of your eyes
Faded are the nights that were ours
Faded away are the shared kisses
Faded the chance youll be my misses
I cant do this much anymore
So tired of finding a key to this door
Without my decisions making much sense
My headache growing, extremely immense
Faded and gone to the world of hate
Faded my chances of finding a mate
Faded, destroyed my heart of blood
Faded, worn spattered in mud
I have no more ambition for this
No reason to live, every turn a miss
Belonging to no one and nothing in all
On my last string I begin to fall
Faded are the gleams in my eyes
Faded is the moon in the sky
Faded away my ambition and hope
Faded into the noose of a rope
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| Corrugated |
[12 Apr 2006|11:43pm] |
Im broken down and torn apart
ripped to pieces are my cardboard heart
Its been used and passed on
It feels like a used coupon
Fringed away from the corners in
I dont even know where the seams begin
Tape me up without care
and toss me in the corner with dispare
I hate my corrugated heart
and its ongoing passionate start
but it runs my life
and controles my future
for my brain wont listen
where my heart fits in
Faded from the color new
the rain has covered my heart in dew
the rain of tears and misery
where it belongs, still a mystery
Used, destroyed, maladjusted
from your knife ive even rusted
stuck in me for ever and a day
youd forgetten it in me when you threw me away.....
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